When we get it wrong God uses our mistake

Looking back at my life I think it has been an incredible journey. Is that because I chose the exciting route over God’s path or that God chose to make good my mistakes? I suspect it was God’s hand sewing his golden thread through the tapestry of my life. On the right side the picture looks perfect, but underneath there are knots and twists that look worse than a  doll’s matted hair which has been left to the elements.

I love hindsight, because if I look at my life I can see how God brought me back in alignment with his will for my life. Not only that, the experiences of travelling a varied life has allowed me to empathise with those around me, who fall into the same holes that I have done. Without God intervening so many times, disaster would have been the norm. Instead of anger, compassion has become part of my life. And no matter where I walked or often ran, God was there at my side waiting for me to catch hold of his hand. He did not insist that I take His help, instead He quietly whispered in the wind, “I am here.” Did I hear that gentle voice? Sometimes, if I was listening. So often I was in the thrill of the moment. Then other times, down in the depths of a very long and dark tunnel thinking how do I fix this? The more I  tried to untangle that matted hair the worse it got.

I was the fix-it girl. Ever since I was young I would find solutions, often very imaginative ones. Most created through necessity. I relied on me and occasionally God, if I thought about Him.

Now looking back, most of the ‘fix-its’ were actually God correcting my solutions in a very unobtrusive way. Through a  thought or an idea. I was not alone, even if I believed I was. My mistakes were easy to correct for a God who created the universe and indeed they became the starting point for other more important work that God had for me. So He let me think I was in charge! Only a great Manager can do that. Then He guided me to where He wanted me to go. Oh how well my Father knows me.

When you look at your life through God’s eyes an amazing transformation follows. Where you see hopelessness, God sees opportunities for us to grow. Where we see the ‘no exit’ sign, God sees an open road and longs to show us the route to Freedom.

As an exercise write down or think of some of your experiences and see how they concluded. Can you see that golden thread travelling through the matted journey of your life? If so, give God the glory, for it is He that has been sewing His Kingdom into your life.

Dear God

Dear God 

I am on my knees 
asking you please
to hear my tears.
For I have sinned against you.


My dear child

I love you. My son Jesus died for you not because you deserve it but because I ordained it. You come from my heart and I want you to return to my heart. Whatever you have done confess it now.


Dear God

I was angry 

My dear child 

I know I heard you.


Dear God

I cannot forgive the person who hurt me. 

My dear child

Forgiveness is divine.  


Dear God

I want to punish the person who hurt me. 

My dear child

Your reaction is human. 


Dear God

This pain is tearing me apart.  


My dear child

Look at my son, at his whipped body, torn apart by anger and fear. Watch him as he drags his cross (the sins of man) to his death. Glance if you can at his distorted frame that hangs on the wood. Hold his stare for a moment and see the love in his eyes for you. 

He died for your anger, your hurts, your unforgiveness, your revenge. He took your sins and suffered for you. 

His words 'Father forgive them for they know not what they do' were for you. 

You are forgiven. My grace says so.

My arms are open to you always.

Now go and make peace with yourself and your family. 

Pray for divine forgiveness to enter your heart and ponder my words daily. 

I love you my child. 


Dear God

Thank you for your mercy and grace. I am not worthy but by the blood poured out for me by the lamb I will do my best to worship you and lead a better life. 

Amen.


John 15:13

There is no greater love than to lay down one's life for one's friends. 


My dear child

You are my friend, now be a friend to others as I have shown you.






Dear God

Thank you.